alrighty.. Its 3:40 am.. I'm about to just say whatever blahs that are on my mind.. and i warn u.. it isnt goin to be quite sweet or whatever its supposed to be...
my latest book i read... (Tuesdays with Morrie) by Mitch Albom..
yet another great book.. that i finished within a few hrs of the night.. that left me crying and contemplating about my life, how i live it and the people that i know.
its utterly amazing how just words on paper can move a persons soul so much.. move ur inner thoughts and feelings..
an old man, a young man and life's greatest lesson...
* accept what you are able to do & what you are not able to do...
* Accept the past as PAST , without denying it or discarding it.
We all hate becoming something we dont want to be.. routine, losing track of frienships as the years go by, giving up on dreams we held dearly... and then we sit back and think.. how did this happen?? When did it happen..
( i had become too wrapped up in the siren song of my own life )...
funerals... a time where ppl get together.. and say great things about a person who is no longer there... is it fair that the deceased cant hear such great words? is it right for the person who is dead to not know how much he is loved and hear those words of love and affection? To hear those words that ppl long to say when they think its too late..
ironic... a person leaves the world. feeling unloved.. only to have a mass crowd at his funeral..
i wonder who will be at mine? what will they say about me when I'm gone... a part of me is so eager to know and find out...
the way I'm feeling right now.. i doubt the grasshoppers will even be there..
yes.. PMS.. is a bitch... bite me.
Everyone knows they are going to die...but nobody believes it.. if we did.. we would do things differently.. ( the book is amazing i tell u )
.... hmm.. it goes on to tell u... that these questions.. u shud ask urself.. everyday...
IS today the day?
Am I ready?
Am i doing all i need to do?
Am i being the person i want to be?
Is today the day i die?
why dont we have ( living funerals) ? a party where ppl say what they feel... as in.. a funeral...
but.. the person who is dead.. isnt really dead?
have u ever wondered why ppl get uncomfortable in a quiet room? why do we humans become embarrassed by silence?? ppl start to shift their weight and look around the room to keep themself occuppied.. why cant we have a bunch of ppl in a room.. not talking and feel comfortable with just sittin there... breathing in.. and out.. lookin at each other?? why do we feel xposed during times like that? like our inner most thoughts and secrets are being revealed..?
a very short story was told in the book.. that caught the very strings of my heart... In this mental institution... a woman wud be found laying face down on the floor of the hallway to her room EVERY morning and wud stay there till the evening.. not moving at all.. doctors and nurses stepping around her.. seeing that she isnt doin anyone any harm... the man in the book sat and watched her for days and then gradually went and laid next to her.. keeping her company till she warmed up to him.. and eventually he was able to get her up and back into her room...
What was it that she wanted the most? why did she do that EVERY SINGLE DAY??
The same thing that MANY ppl want...
Someone to notice she was there...
.....dum di dum dum dum... ( dont ask )
I'm in the mood to listen to Black Orchid - Blue October.... god.. can u hear it in his voice? i wana sing like that.. i want to pass emotion to ppl.. let them feel things.
ever feel that just everyone is avoiding u? ever feel that just mayb.. nobody can stand u? or.. i duno.. why dont ppl feel satisified from a relationship? is there somthing wrong with me or is it all human kind?
I'm feeling very rebelious at the moment.. and very self destructive mode as well..... but what am i gona do? I'm stuck at home.. and cant do a thing... whooooopeeee. I'm gona get some chocolate... and some ice-cream.. i hope there is some cake too.. yes.. thats what i will do.. the first steps to my self destruction!! *muahahahaa* (evil-laugh for those of u who didnt get that)
If you were reincarnated... what would you want to come back as?
11 comments:
PMS is a bitch, funerals happen, we r all going to die, its just a matter of time,,, but we r not dead now, so we shouldnt spend too much time thinking about it or it would b the only thing we think about till we die. Death chases u to the grave. time IS always on our tail. we just have to develop a certain apathy to get us from day to day.
WE LOVE YOU!
and i want to b reincarnated as a cloud. or a person who lives on a cloud.
awww... *hug* thanks sweety.. yes.. but if we TRULY realize that we are goin to die and believe it.. then we wudnt waste our time doing things we dont enjoy and wasting precious moments away from loved ones.. and regretting things..
hmmm... why a cloud?
I'd like to come back as a television, and watch all the people watching me.
haha... thats nice.. a televesion eh? lol :) cool.. but how do u know u can watch all the ppl who watch u?
Remeber this is not our home, we belong to somewhere else. That is why you feel out of place here. Death is only a door that will take you to the lets say the "longets" part of your life, where you can stay with all the ones you love for 1Miilion 2 MM what the heck 1 Billion years, or be a cloud or a tv or anything you want.
So don't think that it is only you on this road, all of us are at the same road, but some ppl do not know that they are.
what can I say to give you comfort that most of us are only looking & seeing one part of the story of life, doing so we see things that do not make sense to us, things that seem to be unfair, things that are even crul. But one day will come when we will see the other side or the conclussion. Only then we will be able to appreciate the story.
and about "nobody can stand u" expand ur realm of appreciation beyond humans ... may be you will find that the sky loves you, or the plants know who u r, ot ur room missis u when u r out. u will find that there r lots of other creatures who care about u while u don't even notice them ... (so I'm crazy now) look for harmony, u will find it, and eventually u will do that with humans.
Cake is a good.
39East
Just this afternoon, my professor in Philosophy was handing out these papers and I was surprised to find it about this book!:> It was never my intention to read the book as of the moment but now I have to. Maybe your ideas would be helpful.
reincarnation? i'd love to be a mountain. unmoveable!:>
39 east: haha.. i knew it was u... just when i started reading the comment... i just knew it.. straight away.. and ur spelling mistakes were a confirmation.. yes i realize I'm not alone on this journey and those thoughts... but wudnt the world be so much less lonelier if ppl shared and cared without thinking twice about it?
I like the idea that my room, bed, laptop, cat, the sky and so on misses me when I'm away too long.. :) its a very warming thought..
Deville:
LOOL... see what happens when i decide and have no intention of doin somthin?? life plays a joke and makes u do it anyway.. :)
lol.. next time.. dont say u wont do somthin.. or u will do somthin.. coz life always shows u who's boss and makes u do the opposite.. :P
I think u'll enjoy the book... i did.. i wud have loved to attend the guys classes.. the professor seemed to be such a cool guy and.. not just cool.. but someone who u can REALLY learn from.
when u read it.. lemme know what u think.. :)
Those wicked spelling mistakes, even though I was wearing my black sun glasses... get u next time.
lool... like to see u try.. :P
oh and deville: incase u didnt get it.. its u decide.. not (i) decide.. lol... i shud be sleepin and I'm makin so many friggin mistakes.. lol
oh ok...:> i was kinda thinkin, "wat in the world's she sayin!?!":>
i'll let u know when i read the book.
cool... i'll be waiting..
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