I've been online.. for god knows how long... I've been so caught up and distracted lately that i have not been keepin up with my blog or anything else on the net... I've neglected alot.. but mostly for lack of time.. The days have become so short lately.. there isnt enough time to do all that i want.. and yet while I'm sitting here complaining i dont have enough time.. i wonder and ask myself how the heck did i manage to survive working two very demanding jobs and maintain my sanity.
or have i lost my sanity but dont realize it yet??? mayb... but i find being insane quite nice and pretty amusing. :)
My mind is racing at a million thots per second.. so much to do.. so much i want to do... so much i shud be doing.. yet i am still here.. in my fav night shirt.. sitting in my bed.. with my laptop on my lap... and I'm currently listening to the non stop beat of ac/dc remix.. *sigh* why do i play music non stop till i get sick of it??
I think its becoz it drives me crazy that i cant get enough of something.. so i over do it... so i dont want it anymore... o_O
hmmm... that sounds very unhealthy... sounds pretty crazy too... but i guess thats ok since we've already established that i am infact insane.. and i dont mind either.
*clicks on the play count tab in iTunes and starts listening to the songs that were heard the least number of times since I've restored my hard drive*
hmm.. lool.. cute.. (dancing in the moonlight - van morrison) *sighs happily* this makes me think of someone... :) I wonder what he's dreaming at this moment... and if he realizes i miss him or not..
I've been passionately in love with my new Canon 400D.. i feel so overwhelmed with the urge to take pics of everything that i dont know what to do.. i often hold it back becoz i know I will drive others totally MAD with the cam everywhere... if they only knew how much the sound of the shutter closing.. making that "click" sound... gives me such a rush. I never knew i wud love such a sound. Everything looks so much better thru the viewfinder.. why do i feel the need to capture everything thru that viewfinder?? to see it always the way i saw it thru that lens??
aah... lenses... I still only have my stock lens.. ( which in a way i think is a good thing ) i read in a magazine the other day something that started like this...
"if you are afflicted with lens-buying addiction (LBA)......... " i cudnt help but laugh out loud and instantly think... and acknowledge that i am almost SURE that i will have that one day.. i mean.. how cud u go wrong with having many lenses??? ( yes i know I'm making up xcuses to justify my want to buy lenses )
anywho... i happened to mention that advertisement to the girls one night as we sat in the living room chatting, snacking and watching MTV... the makeup addicts cudnt help but laugh and call me a nerd... and said they cud easily relate to such a "buying" addiction...
ha! me.. a nerd... i never thot of myslf that way... hmm.. i wonder how many ppl think that way of me? lol.. i dont care really.. it wud just be interesting to find out.
I know I'm a tad bit "diff" and i like it that way...
one thing that has bothered me tho.... someone said I'm like a baby... that I'm utterly and irreversibly innocent... and that i am not really a 26 yr old.. that in fact I'm a 15 or 16 yr old..
i dont think of myself as innocent.. i realize all that goes on in this world.. i just choose not to dwell over the less pleasant things... just becoz i openly xpress how i dont understand how and why ppl do certain things makes me innocent minded?? i dont think so..
mayb being innocent isnt so bad...
ah... i wana paint.. i want to go and get my camera and take pics of something... but what? i feel a surge of inspiration building up in me.. and i duno if its my lack of sleep tonight.. that mayb i am becoming very tired... or is it becoz I'v been quite happy the past few weeks.. and it just seems to be getting better.. despite the few obstacles i may run into.. and the few long routes i need to take...
god i think i can jump from one topic to another for quite a long time... and i honestly dont know how to word my thoughts properly... infact I'm not even sure that anything that i have just spent typing made any sense at all... but i guess it doesnt really matter now does it?
for now.. i'll share just a few small snaps that i have taken with my cam.. thru out my days in the past few weeks of my life.. they each mean somthing to me.. even if they same quite bland and ordinary to u.
anyhow.. enjoy!
Souma's bday at caspers...
work work work...
yummy waffles during an early breakfast..
lighting at senses..
someones new addiction...
yet another addiction.. 2nd cup
the view from work...
a party at fun time pizza
