Friends

Here we are.. living our daily life.. we wake up every morning and go to work and do pretty much the same thing we did yesterday.. but what makes it from becoming that all too well known depressing routine of a life that nobody enjoys?? Friends.. thats what makes it all worthwile.. a smile here.. and a laugh there.. a few pushes and giggles.. lots of gossip and more giggles about the cute guy who just served us our dinner... or getting all dressed up and cheering for a team that we know is going to lose.. XD



girls nights out.. awesome times.. so many inside jokes.. that nobody wud ever get.. unless they were actually there... and then still.. it may be hard for some to understand even if they were there.. a game of trivial pursuit.. everyone becoming a bit more competitive than needed.. but all laughing the whole time..



who ever said that girls cant have fun here in jeddah? all you need is a good combo of friends...





here we are... our life.. we have nothing to look forward to except each others company..
we can make any place seem like a grand place to hang out... even at 8 am while the whole world sleeps in... dragging ourselves out of bed.. totally xhausted from whatever crazy thing we did the night before... just to go and have a picnic breakfast.. at an old abandoned park.
(it was worth every ounce of sleep that i lacked that day)




bless each and every one of them.. for all the great times.. for all the times they supported me.. for the times i had a shoulder to cry on.. for the amazing laughs... may we all stay friends for as long as we live..

i love you all...

A New Beginning

yes.. i know.. its been such a long time... *sarcastic*
so much has been happening... i wont bother u with the gruesome details.. or the sappy ones either...

Its sunday.... ( technically it is ) 2:30 am... yes.. as u have figured, I'm still awake.. plz dont ask why.. coz i have no idea.

well... things have finally taken their toll on me.. and I've finally stood up and am not going to let anything take charge of me or my feelings.. I'm going to stop drowning myself in work.. stop running away... and I'm going to stand my ground. I'm going to discover the woman inside me.. release the true potential that i have.. seek the talent i know lives somewhere deep inside in the darkness.. where i have carefully locked up for so long... embrace free time and spend it just breathing... *inhale.. exhale*

there are soo many better things to life than being overworked and un appreciated.. life is too short to sit there and ache over somthin that u cud do nothing to change... i refuse to let myself fall into that again...

here i am... feeling like a huge burden was lifted off my chest... one less thing i have to complain about... one less thing i have in my life that xhausts me to my core.. that devours my every thought...

I've done it... I'm free... I've quit one of my jobs.. the more demanding one.. the one i dont feel appreciated in.. the one i am no longer happy at. ( yes.. i ache to think i will leave the kids.. i will truly miss them ) but its not about THEM anymore... its time to put ME first.

Its time to spread my wings and fly...




PLEASE.. Pay a visit to my deviantart page.. and visit the wonderful artists that i have featured in my journal in tribute of letting go and flying away...

What hurts the most...

Here i am.... another song... that i just cant get enough of...

how odd is it to find songs that match our life almost to the crossed T's and the dotted I's...

here it is... for ur eyes only..






What Hurts The Most - by Rascal Flatts

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do

Happiness

... If ignorance is bliss.... then why aren't more people in the world happy??

How to Save a Life

*tis the season to be jolly.. fa lalala la-lala lala....*

*cough cough*... who the heck am i kiddin... do i have a reason to be jolly??
well... i do have my health.. amen to that.. I do have a job.. I've got my family and i've got my friends... I'm not physically or mentally challenged (altho some my disagree) *gives a look to certain ppl around the room*
so u ask me why i am so freakin miserable... eh? well it wudnt b much fun to just say it now wud it..

actually I'm just too damn lazy to sit here and type the "soap opera" life that i have... they say there is always light at the end of a dark tunnel... that the darkest hour is that before the dawn... its always been one of my fav sayings... but I'm havin such a hard time waiting for that dawn... things just keep getting darker and darker.. and i keep tellin myself... i'll see the crack of dawn soon... just hold on... keep ur faith... keep believing.. be strong.. and then i sit there in the dark... complete darkness... i duno which way to go... afraid of what i'll bump into.. feeling so uneasy in the room.. its soo quiet.. i start slowly moving forward.. thinkin.. anywhere is better than this... that mayb in some place not far.. there mayb a little light.. a glimmer of a candle... just a little light.. its all i ask for... as i keep seeking the light... i cant help but start to feel a tiny feeling building up inside me.. that feeling that i hate so much.. that feeling which i know too well... somthin that destroys all sanity... that can make a person mad... ( no i dont mean angry mad.. i mean crazy mad )
.... that one... all time... enemy of man kind... Panic... u know its coming... u feel it each time u take a breath.. u try to calm ur self by taking slow breaths and tryin not to think about bein stuck in this bloody darkness the rest of ur life... shud i run ...? frantically seeking any light?? or shud i stay here... telling myself to relax... to sink deep into my music... waiting for that final dark hour of mine...
that crack of dawn.. that i know will come.

my music... my soul... my savior.. my light.. from the ever so dark room...



(How to Save a Life.. by the fray) awesome song.. awesome lyrics..

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it’s just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you’ve told him all along
And pray to God he hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you’ve followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he’ll say he’s just not the same
And you’ll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life..