what makes the world go round

.... choices... commitments... thoughts... ideas... contradicting thoughts... clashing minds... grudges... hatred....

i hate being an adult... too many choices to make.. to many mistakes that can't be taken back.. which makes choices harder to make.
i hate not being heard... i hate feeling like I'm suffocating... i hate how the world lives around money... Love doesnt make the world go round.. money does .... and it sucks... its terrible... its terrible that people fight and strive and get sick to succeed... and what happens to that success when they die?? was their work appreciated? does anyone ever remember all the hard work they put in?

i wana live on a far away island... where i dont have to live by the politics that the world lives by... i want to live far away.. where i dont have to strive and struggle for money... i want to live somewhere ... where people will see me as ME... not for the clothes i wear.. or the way i style my hair... or my profession... or even the size of my waist or thighs...

i feel so suffocated... sometimes i cant breathe.. and I'm totally overwhelmed by everything around me.

can i be a kid again? can i sit and watch saturday morning cartoons? and only have to worry about getting my homework done and passing my next exam?

*sigh*